miasbrokenangel

Do you know what it’s like to cry every night? To hold a razor to you wrist, and think “Just one quick swipe, and It will  all be over” Do you know? Do you know what it’s like to live under a façade? To smile at everyone, and think “Is this really worth it, Should I really go on?” Do you know? Do you know what it’s like to fake a laugh? To hear the hideous lie, and think “Why do I do this, There really is no point.” Do you know? Do you know? Do you [i]really[/i] know? Well, Welcome to my life.

Tonight is the night Tonight I will die Tonight I will disappear Tonight I will win Tonight I will lose Tomorrow will be no more Tomorrow I will be dead Tomorrow I will be gone Tomorrow I will have won Tomorrow I will have lost Pill after pill I have taken, hoping for the end. In my dreams shall I die Dreams of butterflies and balloons. I shall die 'happy' Pill after pill I have taken Tonight is the night Tomorrow I will be no more I have won I have lost Oh woe is me. . . .

Hey you, Yeah, you! Where were you last night? I was crying, Did you not hear my sobs? Hey you, Yeah, you! Where were you last week? I was terrified, Did you not hear my screams? Hey you, Yeah, you! Where were you last month? I was dying, Did you not hear me gasp for air? Hey you, Yeah, you! Where were you last year? I was bleeding, Did you not hear the razor fall? Hey you, Yeah, you! Why are you here? She is dead, Did you not hear her?

Her eyes glanced down at the ground in worry She couldn’t survive this last day at all She was hidden, in a coat that was furry All around her was a large, red, brick wall Never thought that she would get out alive She had died in the very beginning Her tears was a pool deep enough to dive She couldn’t believe she was still living Her hope had washed away in the cold rain Her happiness had run from home that day She had a dream it wouldn’t be the same She prayed that she would get to have a say She held herself and cried that she would live She had so much that she wanted to give

What’s that over there? A lone horse A mare Where is the rider? Hanging between branches If only it had been wider Will she ever get down? Her clothes are ripping Ah, safe and sound Will she get back on? She stares deciding It’s like never had fallen I f only I could be so brave To get back up and fight Instead I stay here and lay Today I vow to get up Instead of dying I refuse to stay stuck

A face in the crowd So many people She is alone A fence in the field The grass is so green She stands in the brown A class picture Teeth gleam in their smiles She frowns A rainbow in the sky Somewhere skies are blue She stares at the grey A group of optimists Positive thoughts radiating She remains a pessimist

Blood splatters against the wall Murder? Mouths are covered in shock What happened A girl died At midnight her life was brutally taken A knife to the throat A gun to the gut A pen in her arm And lastly a set of stairs She was beautiful Didn’t deserve to die Liked by many Loved by many Who would do this? Three years later Crime  is a cold case Murder unsolved A month later Crime is solved A note was found A suicide note She had life insurance Family was in debt The mother sobbed to hear the reasons Father fell to his knees Sister stood in shock The brother . . . Smiled? The End

Her eyes glow in excitement Could this be the end The end of a struggle The end of a friendship Her throat burns as she swallows Did she win the battle The battle of hate The battle of love Did she win Or did she lose One never knows with Mia She lets you think you won Weeks go by not a word Success! Two weeks later The toilet glares at you in anger How dare you lose Could this be the end Or just another trick Is it a test Am I finally free I’m staring at the toilet I lost It was only a test A test of loyalty My eyes glisten with tears Will it ever end The end of this struggle The end of this friendship My th

Her eyes glow in excitement Could this be the end The end of a struggle The end of a friendship Her throat burns as she swallows Did she win the battle The battle of hate The battle of love Did she win Or did she lose One never knows with Mia She lets you think you won Weeks go by not a word Success! Two weeks later The toilet glares at you in anger How dare you lose Could this be the end Or just another trick Is it a test Am I finally free I’m staring at the toilet I lost It was only a test A test of loyalty My eyes glisten with tears Will it ever end The end of this struggle The end of this friendship My th

I used to not believe in love Then I met you My stomach does flips With every time you go by My heart pounds faster Whenever you smile What can I possibly do We were never meant to be A flush comes to my cheeks With every time we kiss My eyes glow with glee Whenever you touch me What can I possibly do We were never meant to be Our friends fight Whenever they see one another We stare in tension As they argue A pair of star crossed lovers We had to split apart I love you You love me What can we do We were never meant to be Tears roll down my face Every time I look at our picture I smile in sadness When I remember you